On Monday, I hosted my very first Google Hangout on the 3 Keys to Unlocking Your Creativity & Expression When Life Is Busy (replay here) No biggie right? I mean I know this topic extremely well. It’s close to my heart. It’s like the marrow of who I am.
But no. Tuesday morning, I awoke with a massive vulnerability hangover.
During the Hangout, I felt fine, even good, inspired, but afterwards, OH MY GOODNESS, I was woozy. I had no idea how sharing some of the deepest parts of my creative life was going to make me feel so exposed. My ego wanted me to cut it out! Here are some of the scolding things it said to me:
You shouldn’t have let people in like that!
You should just write songs and play them, no need to bring people behind the scenes.
Don’t give so much of yourself away, it’s dangerous!
Then later that evening, somehow miraculously I found Brene Brown’s TED talk on vulnerability. If you haven’t seen it, you can watch it here. This is where I learned the phrase “vulnerability hangover” and could see that I definitely had one.
The truth is, there’s a part of me that’s been nudging me toward sharing and showing more of who I am in the creative process.
It’s also true to say that while this is exhilarating and feels authentic and happy to me, it’s also new and requires me to open up more.
Have you ever experienced a vulnerability hangover? If so, what was it like? What did you do?
Did you continue taking risks to increase your comfort level or take to your bed? 😉
For me, I got over it in about 24 hours :), but I was fascinated by the human mind and what it will do to try and protect us (which was a lot of what my talk was about: the ego trying to talk us out of being creative and taking risks).
I’m thinking my vulnerability muscles can be exercised like my body so the burn won’t be so pronounced next time. In fact, I’m looking forward to it 🙂
What about you?
Ps: Again, here is the replay for the 3 Keys to Unlocking Your Creativity & Expression When Life Is Busy ((note: fast forward to 5:40 because that’s where the talk starts) and let me know what you think. What are your ways of staying connected to your creativity?